the feeling of happiness

for the past two years i have been seeking the cure for my unhappiness, and for most of my life i have dedicated my whole time learning and getting better at the game baseball. the summers of all the hard work led me to struggle to contain my anger and to get rid of depression. and till the first day of tryouts of my senior year i was unsure that baseball satisfied the feeling of happiness. and of course the last day of tryouts i felt left out and for some reason i knew that all my hopes for proving that i was the best and for once letting everyone know my name by what i have done. but soon after the last ball was in the bucket my name was called to talk to the coaches. the image of all four coaches sitting in front of me will never leave my mind. because of that day i lost eighteen years of my life, but some how was born again to found some new happiness, but still struggled to forget the past and still fight depression